Poignant Novel
As long as I can tell you I love you
"The urgency of saying the essential, before silence prevails."
A journey between Casablanca and Kuala Lumpur, where every secret weighs an eternity.
Rayan thought he was fleeing his demons by flying to Kuala Lumpur. But when he meets Carla — mysterious and radiant — an unexpected night overturns his certainties.
Back to his life in pieces, a family drama catches up with him. Rayan no longer knows what he is fleeing, nor what he is looking for.
Price
120 Dh
Pages
338
ISBN
978-9920-33-260-6
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NOVEL EXCERPT
Kuala Lumpur
October 6, 2013
A panting breath warms his neck. Lascivious caresses electrify his skin. A greedy mouth ignites his lips. Blonde hair spread over his face blurs his sight. After a long escape in the delights of the ether, he reluctantly descends from his cloud, abandons himself in the golden silk litter, tries to regain his senses. Snuggled against his lover, held in her arms, he scrutinizes these strange places with curiosity. The rays of a vaporous light undulate in a padded atmosphere. He vaguely distinguishes his companion's features behind her hair fallen in a curtain over her face. Although he struggles to recognize her, she seems familiar to him, but quite strange.
Sudden jolts put an end to his emotion. He refuses to disconnect from his mirage, clings to his lover's waist. Lost cause. She moves away from him, slowly vanishes into cottony tufts.
Was it her? Was it with her that he visited the seventh heaven? Or was it a creature fruit of his imagination? Disoriented, he half-opens his eyes, shaken by the same jolts that tore him from his sensual dream. He distinguishes an oval opening in the partition on which he rested his head during his sleep. Recognizing a porthole, he understands that he is in a plane caught in turbulence. He stresses immediately, closes his eyes, clenches his fists, prays for the atmospheric tumult to cease. Calm returns after a few minutes. He lifts the porthole cover, lets in a brilliant light. A young woman is sleeping in the next seat. A voice announces the descent of the Malaysia Airlines Boeing 777 to Kuala Lumpur.
His dream left him pensive. Was it an outlet for the malaise that pushed him to overcome his phobia of flying, to leave Casablanca the day before, and to go to Asia with a broken heart? Will he be able, during this trip, to put behind him the elusive ghosts that disrupt his small world and, upon his return, preserve the latter from the perils that await it?
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As long as I can tell you I love you: A novel on love, time, and transmission
As long as I can tell you I love you is a novel by Rida Lamrini dedicated to love when it ceases to be an evidence. Through the story of Rayan and Camélia, the book explores with rare sensitivity the unspoken words, the distance that slowly sets in, and the desperate attempts to reconnect. Combining psychological accuracy and romantic depth, it stands as a major work of contemporary Moroccan literature in French.
A literary analysis of the novel
In As long as I can tell you I love you, Rida Lamrini portrays a man at the moment when his life stops fitting into the structures that had previously reassured him: marriage, the family home, children, travel, social success, and public engagement. Rayan is not just a husband in crisis; he is a man discovering that the major constructions of an existence can lose their meaning when love is no longer nurtured by attention, words, and recognition.
The novel finely works the gap between what we believe we have built and what truly remains. The house in Casablanca, the couple's memories, the children who have left to study abroad, international travels, and romantic encounters compose an emotional cartography where each place carries a question. Kuala Lumpur opens the breach of desire. Cap de l'Eau becomes the setting for a reconciliation attempt. Moscow confronts the intimate marital history with the tremors of geopolitics. Paris and Casablanca extend the echo of separations, impossible returns, and family ties.
This novel is also a meditation on words. The characters love each other, hurt each other, fall silent, and seek each other, but salvation, when it exists, comes through writing. A letter, an email, a transmitted story, a phrase finally spoken can shift a life. The title then takes on a larger dimension: saying "I love you" is not only about love between a man and a woman. It is also about father and son, memory and transmission, the possibility of leaving a trace of presence when life threatens to wash everything away. This poetic dimension also inspired a unique musical creation by Adnane Benchakroun, extending the emotion of the book into music.
Main themes of the novel
Love tested by time
The novel explores love after thirty years of marriage, when the initial passion has given way to habits, grievances, and silences. It shows that a couple does not always die of a major drama, but sometimes of a slow accumulation of missed words.
Solitude after children leave
The departure of the sons transforms the family home into a place of truth. When children are no longer there to occupy the emotional space, Rayan and Camélia find themselves facing their couple, its flaws, and what they avoided looking at for too long.
The desire for rebirth
Rayan's female encounters are not simple romantic episodes. They reveal his need to feel alive, desired, recognized. But they also highlight the difficulty of rebuilding a relationship when mistrust, fear of failure, and old wounds persist.
Fatherhood and transmission
Beyond the marital crisis, the novel finds one of its strongest centers in the father-son relationship. Writing becomes a way to reconnect, perhaps to ask for forgiveness, to transmit an intimate truth, and to leave a trace of love.
Casablanca, city of memory
Casablanca occupies a central place in the novel. It is not a simple backdrop; it is at once refuge, fatigue, noise, threatened heritage, daily city, and the character's inner mirror. Through it, the novel is fully integrated into contemporary Moroccan literature. (If you enjoy this unique urban atmosphere, also discover the political thriller Casablanca (Saga of the Mighty), another key work by the author).
Main Characters
- Rayan: The central character, a mature man torn between his past marriage, the desire to start anew, and the need to transmit. His intimate relationship with writing echoes the literary reflections Rida Lamrini develops in his show Face au texte.
- Camélia: Rayan's wife, a figure of past love, accumulated pain, and a couple whose balance is undoing.
- Carla: A bright and sudden meeting in Kuala Lumpur, she awakens in Rayan the feeling of still being alive and desirable.
- Dina: An elegant, strong, and lucid woman, facing a male professional world, she embodies a possibility of intellectual and sensitive love.
- Samia: A woman between Paris and Casablanca, marked by loneliness and the desire for a second emotional life.
- Anis and Rayan's sons: Their departure leaves a family void and forces the parents to confront themselves.
- Fayçal, Naima, Lahcen, and Ba Jalloul: Supporting characters who give the novel its social, family, and human grounding.
Locations: From Casablanca to Kuala Lumpur
Casablanca is the emotional center of the novel: the family home, the streets of Gauthier, urban memory, daily bustle, feeling of suffocation, and visceral attachment. Kuala Lumpur opens the story to the vertigo of travel and encounter. Cap de l'Eau offers a Mediterranean breath where the couple tries to find themselves. Moscow, marked by tensions around Crimea, mixes intimate history with geopolitics. Paris extends the themes of exile, distance, and family ties.
This geography gives the novel a particular scale: displacements are never decorative. Each city reveals a flaw, an illusion, a repair attempt, or a new estrangement.
Why read As long as I can tell you I love you?
Because this novel speaks of a universal experience: loving, losing, remembering, wanting to repair, and then understanding that some bonds cannot be saved by will alone. It speaks to readers who love intimate, character-driven novels, family dramas, and books where fiction becomes a way to think about life.
As long as I can tell you I love you is a novel for those who know that words sometimes arrive too late, but must be spoken anyway. Expressing love, pain, and memory: it is perhaps the only way to fight against disappearance.
Frequently Asked Questions
What is As long as I can tell you I love you about?
The novel tells the story of Rayan, a man facing the wear and tear of his marriage, the departure of his children, and the desire to rebuild his life. Behind this marital crisis lies a deeper reflection on memory, fatherhood, and the urgency of expressing love before it's too late.
Is it a romance novel?
Yes, but not in a sentimental way. It is a novel about love in the long run, its wounds, its illusions, its possible rebirths, and its silences. It explores both conjugal relationships and fatherhood, solitude, and transmission.
Where does the story take place?
The story travels between Casablanca, Kuala Lumpur, Cap de l'Eau, Moscow, and Paris. Each place plays a role in the character's emotional journey.
What are the main themes of the book?
The main themes are love tested by time, the empty nest syndrome (solitude after children leave), the desire for rebirth, fatherhood, transmission, and Casablanca as a city of memory.
Who would enjoy reading this novel?
It appeals to readers who enjoy intimate psychological novels, family dramas, character-driven stories, and books where fiction becomes a way of reflecting on life.
Readers' words
★★★★★« This novel is captivating from the very first pages. The deep and realistic characters make the story even more touching. The author's style is fluid, elegant, and perfectly mastered. It is an intense and unforgettable read that I highly recommend. »
★★★★★« An exceptional book. The story is imbued with a very present humanist fiber, much love and strength of detail. A true avalanche of emotions. »
★★★★★« An ode to hope, white light extended to all those who cannot see the end of the tunnel. A must-read. »
★★★★★« A concentrate of inspirations... a sensitivity that gave birth to a book that speaks to the heart and the mind. Pain and sincerity sweat from the text. »
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